It had been a long time I didn't write here in my blog. I started to create blog all because of my "gardener". He started to write blog about 6 months ago, then he asked me to write blog too. Actually, I was very lazy to write because nobody will read my blog except him. After my "gardener" became my bf, he deleted his blog. Sigh. Actually, I love to read his blog although I was so jealous when he wrote about woman that he liked. He is on the way back here now. I think he will reach at his house around midnight. I can't meet him during Christmas because he will be very busy for 3 days. Sigh. Actually, I just met him on 7 Dec 2008. Oh my god! That was 16 days ago! Wow, I feel like I didn't meet him for months. I must be crazy. hahaha...
I still remember about what he "offered" to me before I went to Penang on 23 Oct 2008. He said if he has chance to be my "gardener", he will try his best to take a very good care of me. He will come back to meet me every month, he will buy car so that it will be convenient to come back here but sometimes he also will take bus since the fuel price was very high during that time. During my official trip to Penang, I met him on 24 Oct, we went for dinner and shopping for a very short while. I met him on 25 Oct, we were so lucky, although that day was weekend but we still can get a karaoke room in RED BOX! It had been more than 2 years I didn't go to sing karaoke. That was my first time sing in RED BOX. We had buffet dinner but I don't really have appetite to eat during that time. Actually, it was a bit weird to sit in a karaoke room with a man who is not my bf but slowly we feel comfortable with each other and enjoy our singing. I never imagine how is his voice when he is singing. I thought he will just simply sing same like my other friends but that night I really surprised that he really can sing well and I like his voice. He also surprised that I don't just sit there but I can sing too. That night, I feel he likes me but I just kept quiet and pretended that I don't know anything about his feeling.
On 26 Oct, he called me. I said I have to meet my close friend in the evening and he agreed to meet me after I met my close friend. It was around 10pm, he reached and picked me up. Since there was nowhere to go, we went to the beach nearby. We walked a bit far from each other. We sat down beside the sea and talked. I was thinking that he likes me but I felt that it is not so good to ask him directly. So, I changed the question. I asked, "Why you came to meet me eventhough you are staying far away?" He kept quiet for a while and answered, "because I like you." I felt like I was dreaming. May be because it was very late already and I was very tired since I had been working very hard during daytime. Then, I was so confused and dizzy. I said I had forgotten that I still have bf. He was so disappointed. We hold hands, I said actually I really like him. I was so happy because the man that I like has the same feeling to me.
On 27 Oct, we had breakfast together. The breakfast tasted bad but we felt so sweet when holding hands. He was very happy. I never see him looks very happy like that before this. I also felt very happy, I felt like a secondary school student who just started to involve in relationship. I left Penang in the afternoon and I reached here at night. My bf had been waited for me at my work place for many hours. When I saw him, I felt like came back to my normal life. When I was on the way back to my house, I was very tired since I walked up and down and carried a lot of heavy things. I tried to forget "gardener" because my bf kept telling me how much he missed me and how terrible his life without me for a few days. He helped me a lot when I reached at my work place. I felt thankful to him. Althought I was very disappointed with my bf but it was very hard to leave him. I can't blame him because I know I just can blame myself. I was very wrong. I am the person who pampered him too much. I made him became very depending on me. I planned everything for our future. Sigh.
I still remember about what he "offered" to me before I went to Penang on 23 Oct 2008. He said if he has chance to be my "gardener", he will try his best to take a very good care of me. He will come back to meet me every month, he will buy car so that it will be convenient to come back here but sometimes he also will take bus since the fuel price was very high during that time. During my official trip to Penang, I met him on 24 Oct, we went for dinner and shopping for a very short while. I met him on 25 Oct, we were so lucky, although that day was weekend but we still can get a karaoke room in RED BOX! It had been more than 2 years I didn't go to sing karaoke. That was my first time sing in RED BOX. We had buffet dinner but I don't really have appetite to eat during that time. Actually, it was a bit weird to sit in a karaoke room with a man who is not my bf but slowly we feel comfortable with each other and enjoy our singing. I never imagine how is his voice when he is singing. I thought he will just simply sing same like my other friends but that night I really surprised that he really can sing well and I like his voice. He also surprised that I don't just sit there but I can sing too. That night, I feel he likes me but I just kept quiet and pretended that I don't know anything about his feeling.
On 26 Oct, he called me. I said I have to meet my close friend in the evening and he agreed to meet me after I met my close friend. It was around 10pm, he reached and picked me up. Since there was nowhere to go, we went to the beach nearby. We walked a bit far from each other. We sat down beside the sea and talked. I was thinking that he likes me but I felt that it is not so good to ask him directly. So, I changed the question. I asked, "Why you came to meet me eventhough you are staying far away?" He kept quiet for a while and answered, "because I like you." I felt like I was dreaming. May be because it was very late already and I was very tired since I had been working very hard during daytime. Then, I was so confused and dizzy. I said I had forgotten that I still have bf. He was so disappointed. We hold hands, I said actually I really like him. I was so happy because the man that I like has the same feeling to me.
On 27 Oct, we had breakfast together. The breakfast tasted bad but we felt so sweet when holding hands. He was very happy. I never see him looks very happy like that before this. I also felt very happy, I felt like a secondary school student who just started to involve in relationship. I left Penang in the afternoon and I reached here at night. My bf had been waited for me at my work place for many hours. When I saw him, I felt like came back to my normal life. When I was on the way back to my house, I was very tired since I walked up and down and carried a lot of heavy things. I tried to forget "gardener" because my bf kept telling me how much he missed me and how terrible his life without me for a few days. He helped me a lot when I reached at my work place. I felt thankful to him. Althought I was very disappointed with my bf but it was very hard to leave him. I can't blame him because I know I just can blame myself. I was very wrong. I am the person who pampered him too much. I made him became very depending on me. I planned everything for our future. Sigh.
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