Tired Day

I sleep early lately but I feel very tired and sleepy. May be because of stress and I don't have quality sleep. Sigh. I keep thinking of my works every time I go out. I still have some data to key in and I haven't do the reading about statistics yet. Somebody hit my car's side mirror this morning! Luckily, the side mirror didn't break. Sigh. I am not feeling well lately. The left part of my abdomen is painful a few times a day. It is just a minor pain, so I am lazy to see doctor.

When I am not happy and stress, I wish I can talk to him but he seems like just an illusion. So, I can't reach him. Who am I in his heart? Nobody. hahaha... I talked to Ellan last night, he said he will sms me every morning to say good morning and he did this morning. hahaha... SK also sms me this morning, he said good morning. He is so nice but .... Sigh... I think I am the one who has problems. I expect more attentions and what I got is less than a normal friend can get. If one day I am sick, I think he can't and won't take care of me. I don't know what feeling inside me now but did he care? NO! LOVE is painful and suffering. hahaha... But it's good for person who wants to lose weight. It makes you lose your appetite. That's why I am getting thinner and thinner. I am talkative but lately I am not interested to talk already. I am not as lucky as other people who has a man who really loves her and care about her. It's ok. Who knows miracle will happen later and my life will turns colourful and bright. : )

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

Ooooh...

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy

Oooh, yahhh

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Oooh, oooh...

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling

Hey, yeah!

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the pain
That I keep all closed in
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Do I Have To Cry For You

Don't wanna close the door,

Don't wanna give up on it
Don't wanna fight no more,
We'll find a way around it,
Where's the love we had?...
We can make it last

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

So tell me what it's for,
If there's no winner in it?
Nobody's keeping score,
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last
Where’s the love we had

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night
Till the morning light, yeah
Do I have to say
I won't let you get away

What do I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Yeah

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh no
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?